Gwaedhiell

Another day had passed and I still haven't seen someone. It had made me worried though what happened during the time spent at Bree did not make anything better.

Many things had gone on today that I felt like my head could just explode. I mean, it had started out sort of nice but then it got down to being bizarre.

I feel a lot more stronger now, a lot more smarter of tactics. I feel like I can be more confident in my skills of combat. Nevertheless, there are things that trouble me.

For one thing, I haven't heard that my friend had gone to the Pony, much less given me a note of something to say what she wanted to talk to me about. I had gone through my routine, though I wasn't used to Bryn and Conrob not being around despite of seeing Bryn earlier talking to Amanda. Though it's only for a few days so I'll make it.

I cannot help but to feel I'm going to have my first actual job soon for my business. Though all in all, this was an interesting day.

Surprises really do come when you least expect it. Quite a few of it happened today.

    Can things get any more confusing for me? So much has been going on lately though it's hard to tell it's for the good or for the bad.

It's amazing how people could pretend to be friendly when certain people are around and then be really rude when they're not. The reason why I say that will be explained soon.

Is it possible to gloss over horror and wickedness, with something so simple as love? Can grace or forgiveness or compassion or any other kind thing, somehow blanket these dark stains, without ever truly dealing with them, to a point where you can simply step over them and pretend they no longer exist? It seems as though that is what people are trying to do right now. And I want it to work. I want the smiles and jests and hugs and well-wishes to make everything better, to erase the cloud that hovers over me. To help me forget. 

But it isn't working.