I continue to make mistakes.
After the visit from Fiontann, miss Cedwyn, Master Maddoct, and Ruevir, I needed to get out. It was on my walk that I remembered the child that they are taking care of and the fever she had. I forgot to ask them how the child was doing. I took a turn towards the Thirsty Boar to find either Fiontann or miss Cedwyn, only to realize they had a gathering. I was unaware of this.
At the door, I saw miss Blackburrow, the man that I now know as Sig, and an unfamiliar dwarf.
I thought it best to retreat, as to not interrupt the gathering, but it seems that miss Blackburrow took note of me and cursed at the knowledge. It was a clear sign she did not want me there. I cannot blame her. If the talk with miss Cedwyn and Fiontann from earlier that day has any truth to it, then the man she was with might be the one she's formed a new courtship with.
I feel like a fool to have been distracted by the dog that caught my attention outside. If I had continued down the path, I would have avoided the rest of the evening. She came out to talk to me, refusing to look my way. After our last meeting, I thought everything had been solved, but it appears I was incorrect in my assumptions.
More people started to come outside, and Fiontann called me to him before I could make myself scarce. While invited to stay, I refused, there was no point, and such crowds have always been hard for me. I didn't want to make her more uncomfortable than I already had.
The dwarf she had been with kept needling about my past with her. I suggested that he speak with miss Blackburrow on the matter, as I'm sure she'd prefer people to know the story from her.
The dwarf followed me when I finally left. I noticed him over my shoulder and stopped to speak with him. He demanded to know the history, threatening that I would be beaten if I had hurt the woman. While a wiser man might have lied, I cannot be bothered. He was told the shortened version, and then I asked whether he wanted me standing for this beating or if I should go on a knee. He was insulted. I still don't understand why he took it as an insult, but I did apologize. He wouldn't hear it.
Now if I'm to cross paths with this dwarf again, he shall take an axe to me. I don't know who he is or where he spends his time. I've found a fear of going outside again now, I have no interest in upsetting this dwarf again and risk a weapon used on me.
I'll not be returning to the Thirsty Boar unless I'm needed. If the dwarf visits the tavern, I cannot risk a visit. Even less so if miss Blackburrow and the man frequent there as well. I've caused her enough grief. Perhaps, in time, the dwarf will find me here, and he shall finish what he threatened. The only thing I can do is wait.
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Miss Rushwood came by with some apples. It was added to those that miss Cedwyn brought, if Doc wishes to use apples for his cooking, he'll have enough now.
She spoke to me about some troubling thoughts she'd had, and I tried to advice her to the best of my abilities. I can only hope that it was of some comfort help to her.
I recalled that an embrace could bring ease to a person when dealing with loss and offered one to her when the time came for her to leave. Her words were mixed, but I believe she was refusing it.
Ruevir offered to help me research the child's stubborn fever, but I let her rest. I know she wishes to learn, but I needed time away from another's company. The day was stressful, and it's kept me shaking. I've managed to avoid another spell, but the matters with this dwarf keeps me on edge. If he wishes to proceed with his threat, then I can only hope that he does it soon so it may be over with and I can find peace from the thought.
