It's strange to write
If it wasn't for
There's something
I've realized
I feel my mind is more at ease now. If it hadn't been for her company, I think I might have started to lose my sanity. With all that has happened, the stress from the work, the lack of self-care, the pressure and constant change in my environment; I needed this.
I'm relaxed now, more than I've ever been. Maybe my patient was right about this.
To return to the waterfall was soothing, to just listen and watch the water. She skipped stones, I tried as well when asked to but it isn't something I'm familiar with and my attempts failed. It was calming to just watch her skip the stones. When we spoke, the words were short and to the point, followed by a comfortable silence.
I didn't know that this is what I needed, but I'm glad for it. It'll be easier to return to the soothery now. Return to my work with a clear mind and arranged thoughts, acceptance of what has happened and knowledge attained from mistakes made. Maybe now, I'll be able to put this journal aside and let it collect dust.
I'll light a candle for my brother to thank him for this foolish journal idea.
