As I pass through Bree, the faces that I once saw along the cobbles have vanished. Everyone seems to be preparing for war, a dearest friend of mine; "Craign" decided that it was his time to depart to Enedwaith. I had walked with him to the south gate of Bree, we exchanged items to each other that meant something to us, and represented a story or feeling. I had exchanged my silver ring that was handed to me by my friend, just before I departed Lorien during my younger days. It has brought me luck and hope, Craign will benefit from it greatly. Craign gave to me a dagger, it was beautiful, the hilt was encrusted with gold and sapphire and the blade's reflection was like the sun hitting the river Anduin, so clear... and so bright.
I am to depart with another friend of mine, "Bluerig" to the south in a weeks or so time. It is not the wish of Lord Elrond, however I think he understands that I vow myself to my country and family. However, I feel as if Bree will in time, dare I say, improve itself, I think my work within the town has been satisfactory to the Council, but I know in my heart I have commited terrible deeds and have been unfair to those whom defy my words, perhaps it was the thought of authority and power that overwhelmed me. It has only hit me now that I sat and had sent people's loved ones to death due to their crimes, I have made myself an enemy to the locals of Bree without knowing to myself why. I should change my ways.
Ilaru still remains defiant to work with me, and I have been pestering her over it for days.. weeks... I am offering her a highly paid tailoring job, to make armour and clothing for the upcomming war, yet I feel as if she remains selfish not to help her Kin and loved ones, or perhaps she just refuses to work for me, because it's me. I think she does not understand that some, if not all her loved ones will depart for the war, and perhaps get injured, or even killed, I know she will be alone...
My two sons, Galadven and Teremonth have seem to departed away from Bree to prepare for war, yet they did not leave a message behind. Probably because I would not allow them... But in a way, I am glad they do defy what I might say, it's all in the best interests of our family, themselves and their Kin's future.
Perhaps there is a glimmer of light within the upcomming months, nothing truly ends.
Loor Turindriel Elithen
