Pain

I was leaning on the tree, by the graves..another nightmare. I see the shadows, all the shadows of the people I've lost and failed. Theses shadows scream at me through my sleep. I went to a river to get some water and clean myself, as I looked at my reflection..i hated the man isaw..all the scars, the burns, the disgust of my existence. I touched the scar around my neck..the the ripe left. It reminds me of what I need to do..it is easy to give up, to embrace death after all this. It's hard to get up in the morning and continue on. I pass by the fountain everyday when I enter town, I look to the spot where Gwaed and I stood. I look to the door and think of my old friends, laughing as my brother had his arm around me, speaking of our last adventure. All of it gone now. Now I stand alone at a fountain and walk alone to the door.. lonlieness is something no one should have. I told that to Aeruthuil, what a hypocrite I am..but I wish him to be happy, he may still have a chance for it. He watched a woman, her name is still unknown to me but the curiosity between the two is evident, I wish he and her would be more open to eachother. They may find comfort in their presences. I also net a southern woman, her name Zajiri. She is a merchant needing a local escort, I suggested Dryn. Of course, I will help him he is a good friend to me. I can't say I'm entirely alone now I suppose, many show me kindness. Dryn knows pain and now he feels he will walk down my path with me, I don't want him to..its not a good one. You do deeds to receive nothing in return, just to prevent others from feeling the pain you've felt. My eye still burns me, I feel the strain on it but I can't complain. I know others suffer as well. I've seemed to have acquired a good amount of enemies..i don't fear them though, I know what is important, it's the lives of the innocent people around Bree. I will give everything I have to protect everyone I can, despite the danger I may face or the impossible odds..i do not fear death.