It has been so long since I have written. The book held a layer of dust, the pages old and worn, I'm worried that the pages may fall out as I write this.
But I had to write.
I saw him today.
I can't remember how long it has been since last but I had to know. He's grown much since last time I saw him and he seems happy. He was laughing. He has a beautiful laugh.
I know I should not come here, they would scold me if they knew. I try to distance myself from the thought but sometimes I worry and I must make sure that he is well if only to sooth these feelings I get.
There are days where I miss him, where I wonder how things would be had my choice been different.
I must not let these thoughts cloud my mind. After the news I have heard I must keep my head clear and mind sharp.
