I don't know what to do right now, other than keep breathing, part of me desires to let life slip through my fingertips. To someday wither away as an old woman with nothing but the stars above me. What happened to me when I was young? Why do I feel so terrified, so disturbed in my thoughts. Some things are better left unknown and unsaid, I wonder how Aeru is doing. I must admit I feel like I've neglected him these past few days, yes I treated him to the best of my ability when he was wounded. I'm starting to miss him and everyone else.. did I.. abandon the only family I have?
Maybe I'm more shallow than I had thought; Gods why can't anything ever be simple? But what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? So many questions and so many scars. Am I even capable of loving anyone? If I cannot love myself? Patience is virtue a virtue that I so desperately need. If I am patient with myself I can do the same for others. Just keep breathing, like Da always said.
