For too long I've been numbed to the concept of death, watching countless people grieve over their loved ones. I thought that after Dad and Uncle died, I would be completely numbed to the very concept of death.
Watching someone who you saw grow up die right before your eyes can change that in a heartbeat.
I have thought it out in my head, time and time again.. If I had just told her to drop and roll to her right, she would have suffered a few bruises, and maybe a broken arm. But I didn't think that far ahead. I couldn't bring that to my thoughts fast enough to save the life of one of the few people that I still loved.
Sereyna died on impact.
Sereyna died on impact.
Sereyna died on impact.
I heard that at least a thousand times when I came back to the barracks to confirm what I already knew..
Saying 'at least she didn't suffer' doesn't help relieve the pain, but the fact that people have gone so far out of their way to help me get through this, is helping.
Priya has proven to be a really good friend to me, and I'll admit that I've sort of used her to fill the void in my heart left by the absence of my beloved Sereyna. Priya was the first person to step in to console me. Knowing that she does care about me to that extent, makes it easy to cope myself, and easier to return the gesture to her. Martie "Magpie" showed up right after her to help me along to. Looking back, it seems fishy, but at the time, I didn't care. I was willing to hold onto anyone's coat tail for support. I ended up having his ban from the inn revoked, but it might have been his intent all along..
I can recall Priya the first time I met her. She wasn't entirely too open to me initially, very timid and reluctant to start up a conversation. She quickly became a close friend to me once I gained her trust, and gave her Norman, the one eared dog.
Eventually I trusted her enough to hand over my kennel, and she seems much better for it. Almost just as well as I did, once I explained to her the methods I trained them with.
But she made up for all the favors, just by being a friend to me when I needed one most.. I don't know where I would have ended up if I wasn't walked away from that horrid scene when I was.
The Gentleman, no longer interests me as the watch's Skipper. Our relationship has become a lot more personal, since he murdered my Sereyna. Nothing will prevent me from seeing to his end. Nothing..
