It have been a long time since I wrote down my thoughts. A lot have happened as always in my life as I have choice to live it. After I left Quizz I felt lonely but I tried to worked as much as I could so I did not have anytime to think to much. It was the best decision we could have take, to leave each other. I love that man but he will be better a lone. He will always be in my heart. Even if I now have understand what I was looking for and I have found it in a Elf. Not a men, an Elf. An elf that I have meet a lot of times before, Naris. I can´t understand why I did not see that before but when I meet him one day at the pony and we started to talk I saw something I have not seen before. He has always been kind to me and nice when he meet me. He invited me to he´s home, I was really gratefully to get an invite to an Elf´s home. When I did get to the neighborhood I did get a lovely feeling inside of me. All the colors, the wind, the smell. When we did enter he´s home I was stunned, so many things. A lot of war things but I did enjoy he´s home and when I looked at him I get a warm feeling and he did make me smile. I asked him why he did not have a bed, he told me he use to sleep outside under the tree. At this neighborhood I am not surprised that you can sleep outside but I prefer to sleep in a bed. He told me to follow him outside to sit under the tree and there we had a small dinner. And from that moment I knew that this Elf was something special.
But being an Elf and an Men together is not just happy times. When I walk in Bree I got this eye´s on me that hurt me a lot, they really did in the beginning. Rhia was the first to say what everyone was thinking about us. I did hurt me a bit even if I know she only want us to be happy. This thing shell test our love to each other a lot. Naris was trying to talk to Rhia but it all end up with me and Naris in a big fight. I have never seen an other person that angry before, but I was trying the best I could to tell him to don´t care about the others even if they hurt me to. I knew my love for Naris was strong. They have been a lot of fights and the last one was the worst one of them all. Naris told me he had to leave me and he ran of. I was crying and tried to talk to Rhia when Naris brother showed up and told me that Naris was in great danger. My biggest fear start to fill my body and I started to panic. I jumped up on my horse and I tried to get home so fast as I could to get my stuff to go looking for him but at home I found him. Badly hurt, nearly dead. I could not breath when I saw him. It was so terrible to see. I did get to the side of the bed to see what I could do to save him. He started to talked about things he wanted me to do because he was going to die. I did not listen, I started to examine him to se how hurt he was. With he´s help I did managed to make he that good that he could heal him self and I started to breath, He is alive. After he rest a bit I saw something in he´s eye´s, I was not sure what it was but then he asked me. "Do you want to merry me now?". I did not know at first what he meant. Then I understand what it was in he´s eye´s , it was fear and love. I have never been so sure of the answer as I was now. "Yes, we do it now". We get up on our horses and went to Rivendell and with my white dress on he showed me a secret place, a lovely place. It was the most beautiful moment in my life. Now he is mine, he do really love me deeply.
It have been a really big turn in my life again to the better this time. I live for him, I will do everything for him. I am going to stay by he´s side what ever happened.
