Maydawn

Nimeway had lived in Bree for a little while.  She had made only one friend at that point, being her dog, Baloo.  The only other person Nime really knew was Maydawn, her sister.  Nime typically spent her time sitting in the back corner of the Pony for it was the easiest place to snatch a little food and was warm.  To tell the truth, Nime never told Maydawn of her hardships.  She would always smile and pretend that everything was alright whenever she spoke to May.

Cuilelass had hoped to return to Bree to see the humans she had come to care for.  After awhile in the Misty Mountains in the cold snow, she returned to Rivendell to receive a letter from her beloved and one from her daughter.  This made her rush to Bree, secretly excited to see them once again.

I feel like I looked into a mirror and saw a reflection of anger.  My niece, Ella Marie, finally found out that she was adopted.  I found her at Cuilelass's house in Bree, which was Ella's favorite place when she was little.  There was so much pain and anger in her eyes, but it reminded me of myself when I was a child.  I told her, in hopes to calm her, "If you dwell on the past, you can never find a future."  I think when I tried to counsel Ella, I ended up counseling myself.

I never expected writing in a journal.  I was taught how to write when I was little, but the thought that my life would get so hard that I would have to vent to a stupid journal.  That I never imagined. I suppose it sort of started when I left Rivendell.  I had blamed Cuilelass for a lot of problems, though it wasn't her fault.  Now in Bree, it is better but worst.  I suppose the main reason I am writing in you now is because of the events yesterday.  An awful man, named Norlow, took me, holding me hostage till May paid him off.

I don't know what to write. I don't know why I even keep this damned book. It is only a reminder of bad decisions from the past.