Anxiety

A calm exterior but a storm within. Where will my help be found? Can I only rely on myself? I can't go running back to Papa now.  No, no we have too many conflicts. It would be a weakness to return to him. He's shut me out and I can't come back in. Dramatic? Perhaps that is how the rest of the world would perceive it.  Thankfully this is my diary,  I'm safe here.  Yes, I'm safe, it's alright.  Or is it? What if I'm still not capable of building a new life? What if, what if, what if! My fears they ring loudly in my ears.