Waking thoughts

I just woke up, the voices were too much. I figured I'd write about the current situations in town. I went to Gwaed's home finally to see if maybe she was back but alas she wasn't. I miss her..she made me feel love and gave me hope that I could have a normal life after all this is over. I hold no hatred toward her though, I understand. Sometimes you just need to roam, find your spot. I hope she is well and finds a great place along with a great man to make her happy, she deserves that. Alas, I still have a small hope she may return. I wait at the pony, perhaps she will come through that door as she did when we first reunited. I asked little Amanda for flower advice, I have been leaving fresh ones at her door so she knows she is welcomed back if she decides to. Anyways, I'll keep it to myself, if I let my feelings over come me then I won't be able to act accordingly when I need to. I talked with Cesistya, she is an elf who has interested me since I first returned to Bree. She always seemed calmed and composed. She always helped others and never once asked for help herself. The death of a child however lingered on her mind. It broke her heart from what I saw. She is a strong Elf, she takes the weight of someone else's life in the balance and puts it on her shoulders, I haven't met many who can do that in my life. I feel sorrow for her, the death of a child is something that is harsh on one's mind. She seemed a bit uplifted though as the next night came. I told her to perhaps visit Brynleigh and Conrob. Those two..They can bring joy into a room just by stepping foot through the door. How they attract everyone to them and how their smiles and love are contagious. Even I feel my hearted lifted when they come into the pony. Their love for one another is true, I hope one day I may find that. As the night went on, Riichard found his way in. He spat insults of Aallan of course..hoping to get a reaction out of the group. He almost did but thankfully they decided against it and left him to his filth. He is a terror, and soon he will be dealt with if the plan goes through. For now I wait and watch, wait for someone to perhaps come through the door or to help someone if they needed it.