A means to an end

My damn eye..i woke up the other morning from a nightmare where the voices were screaming and I was surrounded by shadow. I felt my eye and scar burning like never before, as if someone took poison and stabbed and slashed it repeaditly. It came and went at random times. I can't go to the elves to seek a treatment now, I stayed for too long. I must go with my other plan. I'm going to Angmar, to meet what end I shall meet. Gwaed, I loved the woman..all I ever want is to protect her but I feel this poison in me, this growing anger. I met this woman today and I had to control myself not to cut her into pieces, I usually have much more patience but not today. She boasted about killing a family..i just wanted to end her there but I can't wind up in jail now, I don't know what will happen of this wound on my eye is left untreated. I'm preparing to leave now, gathering what last information I can. Hopefully I can find this Adun woman, she maybe able to give me some information even if I rather not even speak with her. I can't tell Gwaed, she'll try to follow..I plan to tell Dryn perhaps or another of her friends. Tell them to tell her I am scum and selfish, that I leave out of anger and hate. She then maybe able to move on from me, I don't want her to worry and be heart broken if I'm not to return. She deserves a fine man, one who can give her everything, that isn't me.