Why do I feel this way?
As if there's nothing inside me...
Like I'm nothing but a shell.
I don't feel anything. At first I was sad, then angry and worried. But now I feel... nothing. I'm nothing without him. I know I shouldn't depend on him so much or well that's what pa-pa would say but...
Without him I'm empty. Perhaps that's why I'm looking for him, desperate. Business you said. The next evening you said you would return... but you never came home did you?
It's been two weeks since I last saw him... perhaps I'm becoming too clingy.
Perhaps now I'm understanding how Seaver felt the emptiness inside, I want to feel anything I don't care if it's even sadness anything but this... nothing. I don't know who I can talk to about it... pa-pa will probably think I'm being ridiculous and that Skelcar is fine just dealing with business.
I don't think I've smiled today... perhaps even for a few days now. Maybe... I should talk to Taala? Then I'd have to explain that Skelly is missing because that's why I'm empty.
What am I going to do?
