He trusts me, he told me I'm the only person he's ever connected with since his fathers death. I'm glad that he trusts me, he's shared many secrets that he would never tell anyone.
Even though I'm grateful for his trust I still question 'Why me?' Out of all the women in this land, he chose me. He tells me that I'm smart, pretty and that I see things as they are, not as what I wish them to be. These past few days I've been helping him and spending more time with him everyday.
I feel myself falling deeper every minute I'm with him. He's clever, sly and mischievous.
He's my Skelly.
There's nothing I wouldn't do for him. We promised to be by each others side, to protect each other and to watch the others back. We were attacked by two men a day or two ago, one held a hammer during the fight he swung for Skelly's head, I panicked and kicked a chair into the man he hit Skelly's shoulder and not his head.
I was frightened in that one moment more, than I had ever been. I know there will be more moments like that, more moments where I'm scared I might lose him. But I just have to watch his back like I promised and stop them.
We both love the stars and some nights we stay out and watch them together, though the last night was different. He took me to some ruins near the brandy hills I believe. He told me the story of his father jumping off from the cliff and into the river and surviving. It was a good story I must admit, after we ate some sandwiches and relaxed. We cuddled and fell asleep, I felt safe and warm in his arms as if nothing not even the cold could touch me. Ever since I came to Bree Skelcar has believed in me and trusted me, back in Dale I only had one friend.
Coming to Bree Skelcar was my first friend and look where we are now. We still haven't told pa-pa, I'm building up my courage for that. Though Skelly said he didn't care what pa-pa said because it won't stop us. He's right but I'm still nervous. I'd rather pa-pa's approval than his disappointment, but we shall see.
Though there is another person I worry about, Seaver. He does not seem himself lately, he seems distant. I spoke to him and told him he can talk to me about anything, that's what friends are for. He told me he was worried about the woman he loves, he's scared of losing her but he also said he feels he needs space. Which is understandable he's quite a conflicted man inside right now.
I gave him my view but it is his decision I hope he does what he feels is best for himself, sometimes we need to be selfish to understand what we really want.
