My infamy, having reached Nalokha, has given me the true option to choose my own path. I could have went with her, and become one of the most powerful bandits in history, or I could betray her to the Shadow Blades, and abandon my life of crime a heroin. Both of these options, seem great. But in all reality, I do not want to be a brigand.. I don't think I ever have.. That life brings only misery and betrayal.
I owe my decision a great deal to Acelin. He found me in the beginning, and knew me better than I did. He guided me even while I was committing crooked deeds, and working directly with the killers in Bree-land. Even while the sins I committed progressed, he remained friendly, and wise. His words, were what opened my eyes to what I was, and what I could become. I hope Demelin is turning over in his grave, and I hope my mother will be proud of me.
I have already talked to Evallin about joining their ranks, and she said she would run it by Abellinda to decide, but for what I am doing for them, I have a good chance. She initially asked me why I didn't join the Covenant of Steel. Well, I am pretty sure Tylan hates me. Besides, I have many friends in the Shadow Blades (or, would like to think so).
Because of my decision, I have spent a good deal of time outside Nalokha's mansion, with Thayalengir and his.. Abnormal woman, Redian, waiting for her. Crips snuck up on us and Thayalengir nearly killed him.
