I woke myself up screaming again last night. Every night the nightmares get worse! There's the traditional nightmare where I stand there and my brother advances towards me with a knife in his hand. My parents watch us to one side, silent at first and then they burst out into encouragment to my brother, urging him to knife me or whatever. He doesn't need the encouragment...he comes striding towards me, an evil glint in his eye and I try to run but my feet just wont move! I scream to my parents but they just wont help me! He waits until he's almost on top of me and then he strikes like a serpent! His hand grabs my wrist and then the knife flashes out towards me, cutting off the index finger. In the dream I pass out, sinking slowly to the ground but even in that state I can hear my parents laughing and then I wake up.
That is the traditional dream - the dream of maybe five out of seven nights. But of late other dreams have begun to plague my every sleeping moment. Dreams where I see Carnell being brutally murded before my helpless eyes...he screams at me for help but I can offer none! Dreams where I see Dessmond and Alvey ripping each other's throats out as they try and fight for dominion over poor tearful me who only wants them both to be safe. Dreams where I get carried off by six topless blondes with six packs into the sunset...alright! Maybe that one isn't a nightmare and is kind of scrummy but still! The point still stands!
The most recent dreams are the ones of Carlotta. She stands there as I saw her the other day with that wild look in her eyes. And there's Flynagin, coming towards Carlotta with his arms outstretched to welcome her, looking so lovely and innocent. Carlotta smiles at him, opening her arms to wrap him in her embrace before pulling out the knife and stabbing him in the back. The blood pours down his back and I run towards them, screaming and then Carlotta turns to me and laughs as she stabs the blade into her own heart and I'm left there, standing alone with the broken bodies of my friends at my feet, tears streaming down my face and screams erupting from my lips...and then I wake up and remember that its not real....at least...not yet...
