We have returned from the brief trip a sea, a very pleasent journey with supremely enjoyable company.. I could not really ask for more.. a healthy distraction for me has proven a good thing..
Try as I might.. I cannot hide the emptiness I feel.. the gem I found.. cannot be mine.. nor was it a fault of either.. life, circumstances, distance.. Part of me curses the choice my heart made.. the other part of me.. knows it was a good and perfect choice.. no flaw can be found in her..
We have been given our orders.. the Herth now prepares and everyone is clearly focused, this will not be an easy time, where we head to is far removed from all that we love and care for.. nevertheless what needs to be done is essential if we are to have future success against our foe.
A void is within me at present.. a gap in my soul where the one whom I care for no longer dwells..
I shall resist this urge to dwell on bitterness and sorrow yet it is an overwhelming urge.
I shall work my struggle out on all evil that we meet.. a better outlet I think.
The mustering bell has been sounded.. I must now depart.
