This is all such a mess... Everyone keeps telling me different things, and no matter where I go things seem to get more and more complicated, more and more entwined.
Kelinor told Naurlith. He told her that I carry his child... There is no way she's letting me go now. She spared my life once due to me being of her family, but she will never allow a peredhil to stain the familys reputation. Even father opposes it. I could see the disappointment in his eyes, the grief and anger as I told him.
And Kelinor... I met with him, by the last bridge. Father and Caer had come with me. Kelinor was eager to leave, didn't care at all to let me speak or ask any of the billions of questions I had. But it didn't take long to get things clear, that he had planted seeds, corrupted my life in attempt to force me to come with him. He had told Naurlith so that I could never go back, used the child as a reason for me to not have the right to turn against him. He used the child against me so many times. Tried to accuse me, make me feel like a horrible mother for risking my childs life by going back. But I chose not to listen, had made up my mind that I could not go with him. He's a monster. Corruptive and selfish. And yet, before he turned and went east over the last bridge, he dared to tell me he loves me...
Caer took me back to Bree, followed by father. Once we got there Kazy, Seraile, Firui and several others gathered around us. It was such a mess... Questions and accusations thrown about, everyone trying to get something out of someone. I told Kazy what I knew. That Kelinor had gone to the east, aiming to reach Isengard and return something that belonged to Loor Turindriel. She wasn't happy with the information, tried to get more out of me, but I couldn't tell her any more.
Caer attempted to get me away, kept protecting me almost desperately. But why? Kelinor had asked him to keep me safe, but they never cared for each other. Why would Caer care so much for my life? Eventually they let me go without struggle and I rode out of Bree, towards the south. Until I realized that my normal sanctuary would now lead to my death. That the house was now my enemy, and so was Naurlith. If she ever see me again, my child will be killed and most probably me along with it. So I stopped, by a lake. Exhausted, confused, frustrated, desperate... Then father came, to my great relief. He found me sat there, drained with tears, and without struggle I agreed to go with him to Rivendell. He said he'll keep me here for a few days, until everything has hopefully calmed down. It's good to be back home, it is, but... Albillion is still in Bree. I cannot stay here, not for long.
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