Fornelen's Journal: Entry I

It seems that we will be never good enough for others. Everything I hoped for and everyone I had is gone...
Father perished, or so I think since his disappearance. 
Mother left for the war and that was the last I heard of her.
Faethuil... he left me to never come back as he said and told me to not look for mother anymore. 
I had a high hope that I will have a real aunt but I guess my mother just wanted to make us feel better. Rejection hurts. I do not know how my family does it but I cannot manage what I feel. 

What should I do now...?
I should keep the legacy and become the guardian of Forochel, but I have no power to do that. I am too weak. Not enough. Never enough for anyone.

*A tear fell down on the page*

I will do whatever I can, but what for? Everything doesn't have a sense for me anymore...
I am so sorry to let you down, mother....