I've taken this here diary along with me seeing as there be plenty of new things I'll be experiencing, places I'll be going and all.
So, I be in this tent, it's pouring with rain but Ath be out talking with the hunters and traders, and he wants me to go in there..-that- forest. Everyone knows you don't go in there, it be where paths change, trees eat people and that only be if the creatures don't get you first. Don't matter what I say though, he be confident nothing is going to happen except meeting some odd lad that is meant to be living in there. Really? knowing my luck I'll trip over a root, get pulled in by a tree for it's supper, have me shoe spat out and a wolf pee on it all within the first few steps! I know, I know, he just wants to show me that there be more than Bree, and it be sweet and all, but, I ain't certain how I'll manage on this journey. Maybe I've bitten off more than I can chew. It be a long way we are going, with just his horse to carry me if I get tired. I'm a daft sod, this summer were kind with the warm air and all. I didn't even think how the cold air might cause me trouble on account of me lungs being weaker than they were before I got sick. Again, Ath don't reckon it be a problem, then again, he ain't the one with this body.
I feel like this trip be just as much for him than it is for me, more so even, he were so keen to go, made arrangements before even asking me. I suppose it be a matter of his background, him being used to being out and about in the wilds and all. He says he wants to take me on a proper trip, maybe to make up for the last, intentions are sweet regardless. I doubt now I'll be back for the dance. Alys will be upset, but she'll get over it, and knowing her she'll even steal the dress I've been making.
Before we left, I stopped in to the soothery to get me ear checked, which were playing me up a bit, and for some supplies. There were a lass there, looked a bit fierce but lovely all in her black clothes, hooded too, having her treatment, whatever it were. Elias told me I could make some tea, it be strange, a bit like home from home, going to an aunties or the like where you can just be comfy. Kitchen ain't changed really so I think Ma Denton would be happy to hear that. I offered her a cup but she said she had to be on her way. I ain't the nosey sort so I don't know what were wrong with her, and it ain't me place to know, just hope like all who be coming through that door, that they be well soon. He had a look at me ear, and aye, it were infected, but then that be cats for you, their claws ain't the cleanest what with scratching on everything and digging over the dirt. Still throbs a bit, but no doubt the medicine he gave me will help, it'll certainly keep folk from wanting a kiss, garlic juice? does the trick but it's strong stuff! Wasn't long before Ath came in looking for me. Don't think Elias cared much for what he be doing though, poking his head into the study, leaning against stuff. The two men be as different as chalk and cheese. It were strange, uncomfy to me, when they got to talking. There be Elias giving advice, speaking on how the journey might be a bit much on account of the past lung fever, and there be Ath, being all protective, reassuring in his own way, and there be me, caught in the middle, understanding both of them. Doesn't help that they both be tall, and me more of a dwarf height..maybe a bit bigger..looking up at them both as they speak. Elias wanted to know me question, but it were not the right time, not with Ath there, even if he were asked to leave or us nipping into the study. It be a personal thing, and not a medical one as I assured him. I don't even know if I be wanting to know the answer, even if the question be on me mind all the time, maybe I know it already, maybe I just need to hear it coming from him.
Am I happy? I want to be, right now I be feeling a bit crushed, anxious, forced, uncertain and all. There be times I laugh, giggle and enjoy, but happy? I need to think more on that. It didn't help having the dream I did last night, and I ain't sharing it's contents with anyone! It would certainly put a fly in the ointment as they say. Things be moving quick, I don't know how to feel about that, it feels like I be out of control and aye, I go along with it but, maybe it be like a flame that burns too bright. I'm used to barely a smolder, which I know ain't good either. We'll see, like Ma Denton says, it'll all come out in the wash.
Rain is slowing down. Looks like I'll be needing to swallow me fear and go into those woods, wish me luck, and if I don't return and you be reading these words? Look after Bailey me cat will you? Oh and best tell me Ma that I went and done it again, me with pretty lads always turns her hair greyer. Here's to another bit of the adventure eh?
