Entry 8

He left without me. He left without me.
After promising me he'd never leave. He chose to leave without me.

I heard it from people around town. He left no note for me. No reason. No closure. What is it I did that drove him away? Heaven knows I worked not to be too clingy. I wasn't demanding. I was as loving and giving as I could be. I would have gone anywhere with him, no matter the danger. I was willing to give up everything for him.
He said he loved me.
Such a fool I must be. Is he laughing at me? What has he gained? I don't understand. I don't understand any of this.

I know I will always be grateful to know him. Grateful for the time I got with him. Why? After having such deep promises broken?
I suppose because he taught me that I can still love, even after Deor.
But can I still love after him? I don't want to be alone.
I should open an orphanage or some such thing. I tire of being alone and I wish to do some good.
I should go visit that infirmary, now that I know the truth.