I don't know what to do anymore... I'm going to leave soon, I need answers about what really happened to my mom, I don't think she was really killed by orcs, and even if she was, I want to know what she was like before she was killed, I want to know if she had the babies before she was killed... I need answers.
Mr. Rick didn't seem to even bat an eye that I said I was leaving, he's just mad at me, understandably, I hurt him... Betrayed him and Ms. Ness, I don't see why they would ever forgive me, I don't deserve to be forgiven anyway... What I did was wrong, for everything they've done for me I've just acted like a spoiled, ungrateful brat, so I'm really not surprised he's this mad at me, he has every right to be... They both do.
When I told Ms. Brandi that I need to leave and get answers, she told me I can't just leave and that I need to wait until Ms. Gustine is found and safe, so that Mr. Kris and Ms. Brandi can help me get answers, but I don't want help, I told her I need to do this on my own, but now I don't know what to do, do I leave and not let them help me, which I get in trouble for not letting people help me anyway, or do I wait even longer for them to help? I'm just so confused on what to do... I need answers, I've needed them for awhile, but I feel like now is a good time, that maybe I'll find something that will help with my attitude, because honestly? I'm tired of being like this all the time, it's exhausting and nobody likes it, and people seem to avoid me because of it, so why would they want to be around me if I act like this? Why have they ever?
