"Here I am out in the Wilds again...I have done what has been asked of me...yet here I am an outsider.
The Higher's dwelling place certainly is...a eye opener. I find it marvelous, yet I know nothing of things. I have been watched...it is unnerving.
Healed of my hurts, having my weapons reclaimed...Rendis showed me some things...we even sparred...except that I had a wave of guilt come upon me at the end of it. I hurt her...I could have killed her, if my frenzy went on.
Even then...things went more sour. Golf grew impatient, bringing me to find his lost companions. If one is lost, then they are lost...there is no point to search for your kin...except if they are family. Out of them all, he does not understand anything about me. I do not know how the Higher go about their lives, and he expects me to know! What is coin? It is just flattened metal, worthless...
I left him...anger, frustration. I am left hurt and alone...confused. What do they expect of me? I know nothing. Stay together, or die alone...I am an outsider...it seems once you are an outsider, you will stay that way no matter what clan you find yourself in..."
