Diary,
What do I do? I never expected this! I don't know how to deal with it! I mean she just... outrageously flirted with me... and then she kissed me! Yavanna save me, what do I do?
It started when I bumped into her outside the Pony, I was heading to visit Tim and noticed her Dawner sigil so said hello and we talked for a little bit. She was friendly, didn't seem to have full control of what she was saying, because some of the things she said I'm pretty sure she didn't mean too say aloud. Anyway, she offered me a drink, but I was heading to see Tim so declined for then.
At Tim's house we talked for a while, and he told me the story of how he met his late wife, and had me in tears. I left and went back to the Dawn Hall to sleep as I was quite positively shattered, and the next day, I bumped into Ana in the Pony. She bought me a drink and we went to a back room to chat. That was when she began to flirt, complimenting my looks, which I highly believe was a lie, and telling me how nice I look. As I said, she must be blind to think that. I truly didn't know what to do, I must have gone the shade of a plum! I never thought anyone would like me here... I'm so freakishly big in comparison to them... let alone have another woman flirt with me!
What really took the cake was when she kissed me! We stood up to get more drinks and she kissed me! That was when I started crying, I couldn't help but think of Fennarr. I felt so bad for upsetting Ana, I think she thought I disliked the kiss. But I don't know... maybe I liked it a little bit? I was just... shocked. What do I do? I've never thought of a woman that way! I don't know how to deal with this. Béma save me!
