The time I spent at my family's farm was much needed. My motehr finally got to spend some time with Prim, and I got to be away from Bree. It was nice to see my two youngest sisters again, they have grown so much!
After spending several months there, mother told me that she thought it was about time I got back on my feet again. She said that I can't be sad forever, and that trying to get back into the swing of things would help. I know she wasn't kicking me out, she would have let me stay there forever if I had asked her to. So I packed my things and said farewell, promising to come visit soon and I returned to my life in Bree.
I can't live at the estate Drunn and I made. Not yet, anyway. I visit every now and then and just wander around the manor, but I can't bring myself to move out of the Inn room just yet. Mother said it's good for me to visit the place, but I am not so sure. Isn't it borderline crazy? I should just move on and forget about it, yes?
I've started to come into the Pony more often again, and it helps. I keep looking over toward the door as if he might walk in and come sweep me up like he did those years ago, and I know it isn't healthy. I don't even know if it's normal, but mother said to rejoin society, so I still go to the Pony anyway.
I saw Boud again the other day. It was nice to see someone from Drunn's family, and be able to talk about him to someone who actually knew him, instead of just describing him to my mother. It's my own fault he never met her, really, I never asked him to go up there when I should have. It was nice to catch up with my neice, and let her meet Prim, albeit a short reunion.
I think the baby is waking up, I should go now.
