Fiontann
I noticed him as soon as he stepped into the Pony. That long, dark hair, those eyes.Black as the deepest pools of water.Oh he was handsome! I was unable to stop myself from looking at him.Most of the time he was surrounded by people, and I could freely look at him without worrying that he would notice. Other times he was occupied by his papers and now and then he would look up, as if he had a feeling someone was studying him. I had to be more careful those times.But still, I could not stop myself from looking.Now, so long after, I wonder why I was so afraid of him noticing me watching him? Was it perhaps the thrill of not being discovered?
At that time I joined a group of people, the mercenaries of The Bloody Dawn. I got hired on for my knowledge of Bree and my connections in town.Connections that would prove to be of use to them.Little did I know that the man I had admired in the Pony was one of them. Now I could freely watch him at their place, where they all gathered almost daily.I noticed that he watched me aswell now, and it didn't take long until he had asked me to accompany him for a walk. We walked and talked. About him, about me, and he was a true gentleman.
Our walks became frequent, or as frequent as they could be I should say. We had to steal away when we could, him being occupied with Dawn business most of the time. Meeting in the Pony was not an option. As soon as we tried to, someone came up to him, needing him for whatever reasons.
I think he grew tired of it, tired of having to sneak away to meet me, and one day he simply asked if I would move into his house.In my own bedroom.Just like that.
He knew I slept where I could at that time.Sometimes I could afford a room at the tavern, other nights I walked the streets of Bree or even slept with my head on a table in the Pony.
I took him up on the offer and for the first time I had a door that I could shut, a warm fire, not to mention his company.We were finally able to spend time together to talk and laugh.
I remember the day when I became his as if it was yesterday.Everyone in the company was invited to a wedding, and Fiontann asked me to go there with him.As his woman.By his side.No more sneaking around!
Oh how they all looked at us! I could tell it wasn't well liked by the women of the company.He was well liked by them all, and they had wanted to see themselves by his side. Instead it was me.
That night, I became his.And he became my first.Oh how I loved him!
What ever happened then, I bet you wonder? To be honest, I really don't know.Well, for a while everything was good and then it changed. Fiontann became more and more busy with the Dawns work, and I started spending time with others within the company.I spent hours practising battle skills and combat, wanting to learn as much as I could.I started to spend time at the Pony with my new friends, neglecting to come home at night.I drank too much and came home to start arguments with him.The more I pulled away from him, the more obsessed with me he got.
We tried to repair what we had, but the ties I had made with my new friends, and especially one of them, pulled at me and I had to tell Fiontann that we were no more.
Oh how it pained me to do it.To look into those dark eyes that I loved so much and see the sadness and pleading in them.To run my finger across his chest over the tattooed letter N that I know was there under his shirt, for the last time. Knowing that he still loved me.Knowing that I would break his heart.Knowing that he didn't deserve it.
I remember sitting for a long time on Luckys back after it was done, the horse nibbling at the grass ,and me sobbing desperately into his mane. It was over.
