I had to leave the pony... it was taunting me...
When the world was created, what moron made it so that you can't drink if you're going to have a child? I need alcohol if i'm going to survive this... especially now that there's really no chance I'm not pregnant.
What am I even supposed to do? I'm losing my mind. Especially if Gorlen never does come back... maybe I should give the child away, then. I can't be a mother. I especially can't be a mother alone. It hurts to think of. I don't want to imagine that's what will happen, but it seems as likely as possible...
It's only been a day and a half or so but... I miss him...
There's something wrong with me.
Oh right...i'm sober.
