When I came back to Bree i felt totally alone. Zandy uses to be very busy even if I moved to her company to help her, but stil I am here and I love her too much to leave her alone. Quizz has been more nervous than usually and I am worried for his feelings in the company, sometimes I can talk to him to know how he is, sometimes I can´t. The only thing I really know is that he is very worried about me, he tends to be very protective about the men around me like if he was the one who has to defend my honor now Anadryt is not here and i am knowing a man I didn´t know before, warm, lovingly and with a great heart under all that horrible jokes. Another one who joined him to protect me and my honor is Bryse. i am glad is not alone now with Lyndiel, she is very sweet, and seems perfect for him.
I really didn't know the intentions of Cromgard, I think he wishes me and at the same time I think he knows he can´t have me. In any case, no matter what, I always have got a very warm feeling about him. we don't use to talk too much, but he is always there to hug me when I need it.
I am very protective with Lymblood. There are not too many men of honor in Bree and we have to keep them safe. I love his values, he is always correct, he is always warm and he still keeps that innocence I´ve lost. Same values than Lemfor, Klauss and my father, but without that coldness that sometimes is surrounding them and me.
I really love Mugendo, so correct, so charming, and so fun. At the end, a really gentleman. I dont see him too much, but I can see his concern and we have been talking about meeting for me to cook his fishes and we will invite Zandy and her daughter to eat.
I only could cross a word with Taala, enough to be worried for her, but as always I have to leave her to do her business. I am very glad I could see Ney and Deredan, They are always lovely people to meet. Even if we don't have too many things in common, maybe the more important thing is always there, when we talk, for both sides, respect and admiration for the people who has learn to live with dignity after all our mistakes.
I don't want to talk about Bella. I have to accept I´ve lost. I wanted to help her but every time I see her falling more deeply and the only thing I get is her contempt. If something I learnt with Cait is that I have to accept when I lose. No matter how hard you fight for them, at the end they are who have to fight alone. But i promised her i will always look after her and her daughter and I will find a way to do it even if I am out of her life.
And here we are with the two Ricks. I met Rick Cobb twice since i arrive and he has been same enchanting men I met when we knew one to each other. I can see why I felt in love with him, it´s not difficult to do it, specially cause I know him deeply enough to know the kind of man he really is. He has been warm, kind and protective with me. When everyone think he wants to come back with me, I know he wants to protect my honor like Quizz and Bryse. He knows I love Anadryt and he only wants me to be happy. Even if our time has passed is always good for us remembering the good feelings we had, to move on keeping the good and leaving away the mistakes to build a great friendship.
And the other Rick that everyone is mixed up with him. Rickstan, The guard of the Poney Inn. I feel honored he finally trusted me enough to tell me his troubles. I´ve been very worried about him cause he can´t stay without moving even if he is wounded. I enjoy his humor sense of Dale, and I can see he is a man of word even if he doesn't follow the code of honor. I feel safe beside him and he is helping me to feel less alone. In a way I can see he is a bit like me. He is a warm man with close manners who can make another being mistaken about his intentions. I don't doubt about his love for Ced, and i don´t doubt about his intentions about me a deep and sane friendship and nothing more.
With all this, I feel very loved for all my friends. In a way i am happy even if Anadryt is not here.
