I passed the test, i am good enough to be in the army to fight. The bad new is that Anadryt and me are in different places. I guessed so before we came, Klauss told me it, so I am not worried. Anadryt, is really good riding, and he became a good weaponsmith, and we all know he is charismatic and good leader. They are taking good care of him, so I am proud of him and easy cause now I know he is well. He told me not to call the attention, so I can´t be at the nursery cause I would be too close to them. I can´t talk, so I can´t demonstrate I am good leader and I don't have time to do armours cause... my mates are always trying to avoid me to do my duties, so the captain is always punishing me cause of them.
I am not so good with horses, my father is captain of infantry in Gondor, and Klauss is sergeant of infantry too which means I am ready to go to the infantry of Gondor´s Army, not Rohan. I am too small even to be a Rohirric woman, so I had no scape of jokes and abuses.
Bullywyf is big, very big and very strong. It seems here is the only thing that is appreciated, everyone in my group follow him like idiots cause of that. He started to call me Lad-dy cause he says I am small like a boy and pretty like a girl. He is trying to make horrible my life and the rest of them do it too cause of him. I don´t mind really if they tease me but... this is not a game... we can die and they can´t see it. We have to act like a group to do the missions, but they act like a group to fuck me. I want to cry every day but i can´t... I don´t want Anadryt be worried cause of me, so I try to smile and being happy when I see him and... if they see me crying I give to them an excuse for more abuses.
Sometimes i want to go against Buliwyf, take my shield and my mace and tell him: you idiot, get up and fight! But I don't want to call the attention more... Anadryt told me he would fix it... but... in the army , much better if I fix my own problems if I don't want some more... It´s frustrating knowing I can do everything much better than this patch of jerks and I have to act like if I was useless...
