Had my first sword lesson with Halsarn... it was okay until he wanted to hurt Melly...my little baby.
I spit on his face....he deserved it.
Then he said something to me...on one of these trips, someone or something is going to want blood, not from me, but from Meldiriell's Mother.....that is never, ever going to happen.
Never.
My baby will be safe. Even though I hated her at first. She's safe.
Have I found love again? Ivradith wants me. Someone wants me. To love me. And have me love him back. But last time I tried that we ended up with a baby neither of us wanted at first.... Burlnard. I still love you, you know. I'm sorry. Ivra, I don't even know yet....we'll see.
I've cried enough. I'm better now. I'm not fucking up. Not again.
