It has been some time since I recorded my thoughts. So much has kept me busy, away from Bree and my responsibilities. While it felt good to ride away and once again experience the roughness of the Wilds, I could not help but miss the simpler, more joyful life amongst my companions.
The wedding will be soon. When Saeldith and I have finally discovered the availability of those we wish to attend, the ceremony will proceed. I confess I am somewhat nervous - after all, what do I know of being a lord? The others seem to respect me, but will that be enough?
Even so, I cannot wait much longer. I long to bind my life to hers. Saeldith gives everything to those she cares about, and I make it my duty to empower her to continue.
The rest of those sworn to service seem to be coping well. We are more organised now, and have good leaders in Talvor and Eordion. It is a relief to know they will be watchful and protect us all with their House Guard. Sometimes I wish I could fully join them in the simplicity of protection duties, but that is not my future any more. I must step up and take true responsibility for the first time in my life. These people count on me.
I hope I have enough strength to carry this.
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