I am very content these days. I am very happy. But is a strange day as well. The wind is very chill, but I like it, it feels like someone brushing my hair in comfort.
The garden is in full blossom, is an odd scenario to watch since it is late autumn..I picked up a white rose, the most beautiful one I could find.
For months I have felt in my heart I need to follow my inner voice. For years and centuries I have lived a peaceful life in Imladris, helping 'The Flower' with small duties.
Friends and family has been surrounding me in good days and bad days and my bethrotal Earinlin has been there for me. I feel very much in harmony, and I feel this overwhelming calm feeling inside. My heart is complete, there is nothing I long for anymore. Although recent days something has awoken inside me, is like a call. I do not know what it means, but I have been restless for days..
I have been talking to the wisest and the elder's council in Imladris. The time of Eldar's is fading out and groups of Ellons and Elleth's has already left..
The ships are ready for department, and many have already found their way to the Grey havens..
My mother has advised me to leave, she loves me dearly, to much she says. 'Do not linger here anymore Amorith, my beloved daughter'. Aranthalion has advised me to do the same.
They will follow me to the west, but they will wait before they sail. Some tasks has not yet been full-filled.
It worries me deeply. I do not want them any harm, and I know the time is soon to come. Shadow's approaches, there is not safe to be in this lands. The age of men is soon to come, and is their task to save Middle Earth, not ours.
I will leave today, and friends and family will join. I will not leave alone. There is so many that will follow. My mother has a deep sadness in her eyes. I told her 'Worry not Mother Eovina, we will see each-other soon..very soon. I will welcome you home..'
I do feel content, and wisdom and joy makes deep roots in my heart. It is my fate and is my final destination, is where I finally will find the deepest peace and live very happily. I am not sad, nor I am unhappy. I will meet many friends that I have missed so dearly for centuries, finally I will see them again.
Earinlin is on a lengthy patrol, he will come soon. He would have joined me if he could. He would have walked through fire and ice to be with me now.... But I cannot wait anymore. He will understand.., My ship will soon depart. If he cannot join my ship, maybe he will join the next. Although it would have been good to have a hand to hold over the blue seas to the West..
But in the end it does not matter, we will have a whole eternity anyway when we meet each-other again in Valinor. Were we will be complete, utterly happy and reach a spectrum of all kinds of love alongside with friends and family..
For now I leave the white rose with my diary left for him. I cannot wait anymore.
I need to prepare and visit dear friends first..
Time has come, I must leave.
Navaer....
*Amorith leaves her diary*
