I met the … I guess you could call him the second in command the other day. It was no pretty affair apparently. But, I won’t go into that. I just want to tell the story of the best day of my life so far. Now, as you have figured out, I’m in love with the Campealdor. And I’m also due to be married, but not by our choice. Well, its not that we don’t love each other. Nor is it that we don’t see ourselves getting married, but this wedding, was arranged by the Eored.
Anyway, as Eardhelm turned to leave, I thought I should apologize for my actions. I explained myself, trying to tell him that it was the whole wedding that neither Edelred nor I have much say in. He tried to ease my burden saying that it was our decision in the end, but he thought Edelred was blessed to have me.
I didn’t think he quite understood me. I then tried to say, this wasn’t our decision, people decided it for us. And I’m not sure the timing is right. Edelred was still getting over the loss of his family. And me, I felt like the marriage was arranged, and a large part of the reason I left Rohan was because I suffered from too many arranged marriage attempts. Awiergan, (who was currently present) now seems to remember that, but I wasn’t sure Lillika heard that when I said it. After all, she dragged me to get a wedding dress. One that I don’t exactly approve of.
Eardhelm seemed to understand just a little better. He then said all right, if it was what I’d wanted, he’d see to it that the wedding didn’t happen.
Truth is, I don’t want to call the wedding off entirely, I would love to be Edelred’s wife. So I then told Eardhelm to talk to Edelred and see what he wants. I would do whatever Edelred wanted. But provided this wedding is to continue, I deserve to have more of a say. Edelred may have been married before, I had not. Every girl dreams of their wedding day. A girl doesn’t want people telling her how her wedding will go. She wants to decide for herself.
I plead with Eardhelm, ‘Do I not deserve to have the wedding I’ve dreamed of?’ I think maybe that is the thing that bothered me most about the wedding. So it was arranged. It could be worse. I could be marrying a man I do not love, or one that does not love me. But we do care for each other. But, I want to be me at my wedding. And I want the wedding of my dreams. And, well, I want Edelred to ask me to marry him himself. And not because the kin wants him to. Because he wants to.
Eardhelm finally ordered Awiergan to make sure all news of the wedding stopped spreading, and that all planning was to be halted until he got to the bottom of the chaos. I’ll admit, I hugged Eardhelm. I’m not sure he knew how to cope with that, but he knew at least he gave me something that made me happy, and less stressed. I gave Awiergan a hug too when Eardhelm left. He knew a little better how to accept my excitement. Someone finally heard me. Truly, this day was a miracle.
Now, its just what Edelred and I want, at least, that is my hope.
