I woke up two morning ago to find myself in bed, next to me lie a pale lady, I could hardly recognize her .
It all started three days ago, the night before the next morning, a morning I will never forget.
I came home from Forochel, what a day, I was too tired, my body frozen, my mind shrouded, as soon as I entered our home I felt as if the weight of the world was released, here I'm at my Senctuary.
I announced my arrival, I did not hear a reply, I walked toward the hall, into the guest room, there she was on the couch, covered with blanket, I looked at her.
She did not look the same as the day I left, her hair pale, eyes and lips more reddish around it, skin... I tried to wake her gently, and she opened her eyes, smiling to me.
"i'm fine, just tired" thats what she said, I told her to go back to sleep, I was satisfied to know she is alright, I sat beside her, watching the flames
Flames... what a word that I use, it used to give me comfert, it used to bring the fire in my heart to unleash, it is afterall the whole reason we both here today, a fireplace to meet, a relationship to build... a love to feel
It was what seems like hours, my jane woke up and looked at me, I smiled as she is awake.
That smile was shadowed as she began to tell me everything
She was dying... I was shocked, told me she have mere days... mere days
After long night of being utterly sad Jane went to sleep and I helped her get there, I stayed all night, I can feel her breath, it give me comfort in the face of this news.
Thinking about it... our child... oh our unborn child... it cut through my heart like blade... it is going to happen.... eventually.
After hours of thinking... I no longer felt her breath, I checked on her, the pulse was dying away, her breath cut short... after seconds.... she's gone.
Jane... is gone... I can hardly believe it, it was just monets ago I felt her lips in mine with her breath on my face...
I'm going to host the ceremony, family only... I have not the heart nor the strength to plan anything more, it was her speciality.. planning... I never good at it.
I buried her with my own hands after washing her body, tears still run as of the time she told me the news, until this very moments.
It so happened that Mathield wife and my cousin... Khar'el... she died a week ago when she grew very sick, the twins in her tummy... they also followed
I can hardly believe this is all coinsidence, there is an ilness in the air and it killed two of my family members.
But for now, all I can do is mourn in the house, alone, and look to the sky, to those stars, the stars that she loved to look at, for everytime I look into her eyes, I see the stars, I eventualy get lost in them.
Farewell, Jane... I know you are watching over us all, everyone of us, if there was a wish in my heart this very moment... it is to see your smile one last time, so I can smile back and tell you how much I loved you, but you probably know that... you always did.
*The rest of the scroll descripes Jane in many aspects and he draw her from his imagination, it is poorly drawn but it shows the last smile he remember seeing on her*
