The diary of Ithilwien - June 4th entry 2

I know I keep saying it but... What am I doing? Really? I have no clue anymore... Who's side am I really on? When Craign said he wants to see Kelinor dead I just shrugged it off. It stinged in me, a flash of worry came over me, but I just shrugged it off knowing it may be for my brothers best. But when Kazy said "then maybe WE should find him" I instantly got defensive, refusing to in any way help that woman find him. But at least I have Craigns word. At least we have an agreement. Kazy... she just seems corruptive.

But I got the stone. I... I stole it. I went back to the house, and I stole it to bring it to Craign. Turns out it was all for nothing though, as it wasn't this witches stone he thought it was. So I just returned it. Father asked me to show it to his friend, a rune knowing dwarf called Borim who father had set to "protect" me, but I refused. I don't trust that dwarf, not a bit. He acts rudely and interferes with things he has no business with. So I just went back to the house again and left it where I had found it, hoping Kelinor had not been there and noticed that it was missing. Before that we had a long talk, Craign and I. He do seem like a reasonable man. Alot more humble then I had ever expected. Very honest too, he actually admitted right to my face that he did want to see me dead. I took it as if he meant that he DID though. But.. I'm not sure. I hope the information I can bring him is enough to keep me alive. I won't be much use for Albillion when I'm dead... He also revealed that Kelinor is his main target, and after that our house guard. I guess that means Eogler...

I also came across Lasdor again, and later on Dorenthien. Some rather intreguing information came up... It turns out Lasdor and Aladrian are great enemies, and this rivalty began with Lady Dorenthien. It seems they are both in love with her, fighting for her attention. But Lasdor and her are engaged, and... Something about a child, which father claims is his but both Dorenthien and Lasdor claims is Lasdors. I don't know... If this child truly is his, it must be horrible for him to lose another child, to once more not get to live near and raise his own child, just like he could never do with me...

Then, later on in the evening I came across this man named Axelagorn. He randomly came up to me in the Prancing Pony and brought me to the back, starting to ask questions about my name, and my brother. Turns out my brother once tried to kill him... But he did not seem to want me, or Albillion, any harm. He even removed his mask, revealing his face. He was rather handsome, for a human. He then started asking me questions about love.. It made me horribly uneasy. He seemed to think it was strange that I have never been with a man, that I have never been in love. "Oh, so you're a heartbreaker then?" he asked. I'm not sure I understand what he got that from, but I just told him the simple truth.
After that came the encounter with Kazy. That woman makes me so uneasy... Kept asking things, but keeping an innocent look. I hate how I get around people like that. Nervous and uneasy. I keep trying to keep my appearance up, to seem strong, but I always fail. My weakness and insecurity always shined straight through.
Then father brought her to the back, even when I asked him not to. I got fed up and left, and now here I am... The temptation to actually go sleep is creeping onto me. I'm tired, there's been too much going on since I got here.