I've tried, I really have. In my mind I've gone through things so many times now, trying to clear out what have actually happened.
Edani is dead, slain by Craign. Kelinor is badly injured, attacked by Ostui. Aladrian is desperately trying to get closer to me, to gain my trust and make me accept that he is my father and my brother is abscent, taking care of some crown, Loor's crown, which Ostui attempted to steal.
All I've done the last hour, or perhaps hours, is sit here guarding Kelinor, waiting for him to wake up. The thought of losing him devastates me. I don't know him, I really barely do, and he can be an outright idiot at times; unconsiderate, too determined for his own good, doesn't always think things through. But this doesn't change what I'm currently feeling. The fact that I can barely even allow myself to lower my look away from him to write this..
Ithilwien
