Today I have realized what a fool I was yesterday. Moping, sobbing, being an idiot. She said she had to leave and that I could not keep up. In my selfishness and greed of her I did not realize how foolish I had been. Why didn’t I just prove her wrong right then and there? Why did I not insist?
I got myself together later that day and followed her. I only kind of thought about where she may be going. I was right when I found her. Then like some idiot young crush I put a hood and disguise on to surprise her. She was not in the mood, but that is fair. I explained to her then why I was cold…why I was hurtful to her and that I did not accept it from myself. I apologized, because life felt so dull as soon as she had gone.
I told her my fears, I explained to her that I now understand that problem of mine, and that I promise to work on it. I do not wish to see myself bend into something so unstable for her. I am glad I followed her. I do believe that if I had let this fester apart from one another, she may very well grow to resent me, or see our love fade from her. Obsession can be a good thing, but commonly I find it not to be.
I am safe now. I followed her and we reconciled. We agreed that parting is not easy for either of us, but if it must happen it must. The issue slowly vanishes from my mind in her arms. I cannot hardly feel it even today. I am happily watching as this…all this and what happened is, I hope, just becoming a small bad memory in a grand and long story we share. I hope she feels the same, but for now knowing that I am back in her embrace is good enough for me.
