Scholarly skills are not in my kit. Those are the province of my new bride, Seregrian, with whom I look forward to as many days of blissful union as Vairë will allow.
However, I feel compelled to write, into whatever this scribbling may be called, my thoughts and feelings arising from Her gift to me upon our wedding, Her work "Mortals: A Case Study", where She recounts events leading us from our meeting to our union. As I began to read, I felt my own memories of the past year arising as footnotes to her expertly constructed record, and just as I am drawn to Her presence, so is my desire to lay my own written accounts next to Hers.
Before continuing, I must first try to describe the vast world within which I dare to offer these words.
The Lair, Torech Besruth, is many things, but can be seen most notably as a library of works that She has most carefully chosen. Among the tomes are those of her own studious craft, covering a range of topics that is both surprising, considering their collective breadth, and expected, as She is an Elf whose life has spanned six millennia and whose feet have tread on lands that long ago were sent to languish beneath the waves of westward seas. Her timelessness is inevitable, and her library reflects a long life of thoughtful study and clear, if at times passionately charged, assessment. On the last pages of many of the works, evidence of the library's long care under Her determined labor is chronicled by transcribers marks, dating each occurrence of a librarian toiling to faithfully save an aging work onto fresh parchment. Across the body of these transcription lists, Her name is predominant; the dates collectively span ages and in some of the books She is named transcriber more than once. Her library awesomely occupies much space and more time, all under Her faithful and loving efforts, yet here I dare to offer my own little scribblings. If this collection of asides finds itself nestled next to Her case study in one of Her many bookcases in the Lair, then I am sure I will in the end be comforted in whatever world exists beyond this one.
I start out behind in my written testimony, as I have already read the first few entries in Her case study, but in summary, she lays clear in their wording that our meeting and early associations awoke in her something she had thought departed a very long time ago, the notion of loving and being loved. As a mortal, it is unimaginable to me what immortality must be like, incomprehensible as well is the belief that one is permanently cloistered from such essential feelings. Her having steeled Herself to such loneliness for so long....my own heart breaks for Her, and is determined to disprove the dark celibacy of her forlorn conclusion.
She is, in every way, loved.
I will resume my reading of Her case study with "Interrupted Research"....
