Tinuchen,
That is the name he took for himself. A name fits for his pure heart and free soul… A name fits for his shed tears sparkling like little stars.
Yes…
I made him cry. Last night he ran out of the fire of hall and I found him crying silently. That was not my intention, I didn’t mean to hurt him but he thinks as we were…
I was… trying to change him!
But I wasn’t… Someone like me who has fallen into darkness could dare to try changing someone? Is there a possibility for me to want to change something that pure and innocent?
He told me that he is not a child and he can make his decisions!
I knew he is young but not a child… Till that time I never thought of my actions make him feel like this. I was just trying to… help and tried to explain that but sometimes it’s so hard to communicate like we were speaking in different languages.
He told me he is just a guest in Imladris and wanted me to think of him as a guest not a property of ours. Property? Is it possible him to think this for real?
I felt sorrow and my failure in hosting him… Probably I wasn’t the best choice for him to be his guide in Imladris. I told him to find me if he needs any assistance and left him behind… All alone crying…
Maybe I should talk this with the Cauns.. maybe… maybe they can assign a better assistance for him..
