If Death is Freedom, We'll all have Survivor's Guilt

I cannot count by any measure

The innumerable amount of times

That I should have died

And yet, somehow, be it fate or will,

Did not 

Yet if you were to ask me

How often it is that I -

That I feel I should have died 

I would simply hold up one finger 

"My love, that is sometimes the only thing I feel"