The Valliant Heart: Don't Fade Away.

The next day I left for the main land to follow my path until my family house and then further into Middle-Earth. I took a rest near an abandoned house nearby when I heard a familiar voice. As I turned around I found out that my beloved ranger was standing there. I smiled at her for a brief moment and soon enough we started to talk about the abandoned property and soon coming onto the subject of my own family house. "I had a small one in Belfalas.." - I began looking down. The ranger came closer to me inspecting me visually. "But something happened?" - She asked me then. I needed to tell her the truth, but she already knew why I was like this. "I am leaving it for Araithil, his son and my parents. I will not return there. I don't need it anymore" - I said as I looked at her. She looked concerned as she looked at me. "Nethillon..Don't give up for your life so easily. You are needed." - She said towards me trying to reassure me or so I thought. Anyway, her words were valuable for me. "My life... it was valuable at some point and I am glad it was...Please, don't worry over me." - I gave her a brief smile as I looked into her eyes. "I do!" - She then looked away from me - "One is fading away and other one is emotionally mess..and I don't know what to do. I should have never come here." - She finished speaking and seemed really concerned by everything. I smiled for a quick moment once again. "It was the best thing that ever happened to me.." - I said resting my hand on her shoulder. She looked at me once again. "How it can be, when I am reason for you to fade away! It's not right!" - She then shouted with a worried tone. I shook my head before speaking again. "Not you are the reason for it. You're the one that kept me together all along." - I then answered calmly. She looked a bit confused. "Then..I dont understand?" - She said and continued to watch me. "I've interfered in your relations for so long... and then broke up and hurt both of you. That's what I cannot forgive myself." - I then turned to look at the ground. I felt all the pain I might've caused. "Both? I dont think he knows what you feel. And nothing is broken..but me is." - She then answered and I still felt bad with all of it. "Because of me..." - I then whispered while keeping my gaze on the ground. "Neth..No I was broken long time ago and can't be fixed. And you never have done anything to me." - She then reassured me somehow. I looked at her again. "If I could... I would do everything to fix it. Cause I believe it is possible but hard. But I am just not right..." - I then said with a sure and calm tone. The ranger kept looking at me. "What makes you think you're not right?" - She then asked and I waited a moment to gather my thoughts on it before speaking. "You need an strong and honourable man. I am just an emotional man. Nothing more." - I then answered. "And what's wrong with that? You know, my cousin would say, that only true man sheds tears because they are not afraid of their feelings and not afraid to show them. Thats a true strenght. And she is right." - She reassured me once more before we continued. "I don't have a reason to hide them from you." - I then said gazing into her eyes for a while. And so she kept reassuring me about my own strenght as we continued to talk out our issues. "Is there any way I can help you get to know what's good for you?" - I then asked with concern. She sighed and looked to the ground for a moment before facing away. "I don't know..surely..I try so hard save people..but I cant save you, or him or my cousin or friends. Can't even save myself." - She looked broken as she spoke. But that was not true. I have seen much already. "You already saved me many times. I can never repay you for that." - I then said. This was true. I could never thank her for everything she has done. "No if your fading away." - She said quickly when she has heard my words. "What if I stay? Can I do anything?" - I then asked while I looked at her. "I wish I know myself what to do. All I know is that the mission belongs to someone else now" - She then responded. "Maybe it's a good time to think about what makes you happy now." - I then said giving her a brief smile. "Happy?" - She smiled briefly - "My work makes me happy. About rest I don't know Nethillon." - She finished speaking. I smiled once again as I kept looking at her. "How about finding out?" - I asked politely. She really deserved that. Whatever she was saying about herself.
We talked a bit more about all the issues of our own but soon an arrow that was shot between the two of us ended our talk. I glanced at the direction it came from as The Ranger kept protecting me with her shield. "You..." - I said after I spotted the offender who was still present around. The ranger looked at me as I kept my eyes on the Easterling. "You know him..her?" - She asked me and I just nodded my heart watching her. "She was the one that ambushed me and Barahandir." - I then answered with a hard tone. The Ranger readied her javelin just in case. She tried so much to keep that one away from both of us but he insisted on duelling me. I still mistrusted him anyway. At the end of the talk we already knew that I need to fight that wicked woman. And so I approached and awaited her move. They say that better be safe than sorry. The first strike was aimed for my leg but I've managed to avoid it by jumping above the sword. Soon I've tried to disarm the woman but all I could do that time was to disarm only one of her arms and so I did. One sword down, one to go. The ranger watched the duel with worry as the woman tried to disarm me. But still he failed. I attempted to disarm the other arm but I didn't managed to do so. The woman then tried another risky move which resulted with both of us losing our weapons. We went to a bare hand fight very quickly as she aimed for my side with her strong kick. It reached my side and so I fell down, easy to harm without weapons but I grabbed a stone very quickly. She sat on me attempting to pill me to the ground. I fought her and then tried to knock her out with the stone to end the fight. As a result I managed to knock her off but then I fell a pain in my head, then seen darkness. And so the ranger began to help Nethillon as he fell. The haradrim woman left these lands then. Nethillon's condition was getting worse as his breath stopped. The ranger kept trying really hard to save him. As he has stabilised she managed to drag him into an abandoned house. She examined him closely and holds him awaiting for him to wake up. She even tried to wake him up with a smelly vial which did nothing sadly. She then looked at the man for a while. "Erú's sake man, if I need kiss you to wake up I do it. .." - She said more to herself than to him. The ranger kept watching him for long before talking to him in elvish. "Menno o nin na honi eliad annen annin,hon leitho o ngurth.(May the blessing that was given to mebe sent from me to him,may he be released from death)" - She spoke once again. The ranger kept doing everything she could until I finally started to move and regain myself. After I have awoken I looked at her. "My dear... have I lost...?" - I then whispered towards her. She shook her head. "You won, even if she fell down after you." - She answered me then made sure I was alright. I could feel her caressing my hair. "All is good now." - She said to me with a calm tone and I smiled lightly at her. "Always is when you're around." - I answered calmly. "How do you feel?" - She asked me but there was something soothing in her voice that I could sense. "Except a massive headache i am not that bad." - I spoke calmly. We talked a bit about what to do next. She kept talking with me and caressing my hair until I've spotted a tear falling from her eye. "I've done..something..I never done before..now part of my soul is yours. Elven words are powerful. I can use them make you forget me.." - She said with a sad, deep tone. "I need to make sure that neither that part of you or you will get hurt ever again...Both my life and heart belong to you. I'd rather die than forget...Whatever happens... I have my own ways to remember. I'll never allow myself to forget about you..." - I then said silently and closed my eyes. We conversed a bit about our feelings before coming to another, serious matter. There was so much to say about the man she had on her mind. But suddenly I felt weird, like I couldn't breathe again. I told her the whole story and I knew that her cousin can confirm. "I'm sorry...." - Nethillon then said as tears fell down his face before he lost consciousness once again. The ranger seemed frightened but she needed to stay calm for sake of both of them. She rested her hand on his chest. "I am yours as much your mine..Gohenno nin" - She then spoke in elvish as she started to cry. She wanted to be loyal but the desire to save him was stronger. The ranger was focused she maybe is with other guy but she couldn't say where it leads, it seemed going run off the road at some point but this - felt solid and yet there was always what if. Yet she did it still, formed connection to Nethillon, he could feel it like some energy was poured in to him. And then I woke up. "It's terrible connection Nethillon. I am selfish keeping you alive and ..and breaking eventually him..or you." - She then said spotting me awake. I then told her that I'd stay away from them if needed. "You got my answer..Now you know..even if I would be thousands of miles away." - She then answered while looking at me. And then I understood. "If I am not to stay as the one and only with the best person in Arda... I will protect her and give my life for her if needed." - I then said towards her with a smile. We talked for a bit more until the day has passed.