Is this the end?

So, it’s finally here. After my brief trip home to Gondor on request of a friend. It seems everything has caught up to me. During a skirmish, I lost two of my fingers on my left hand to a blade. I suffered even more lacerations and now, I feel like I just don’t have the strength anymore. The strength to wake up, to go to town, and if I was faced with an enemy now? I’d hardly stand a chance, it be a struggle to even unsheathe my sword. Every breathe is a pain as well, I feel it coming. I wish I could’ve done more, could’ve been a better friend, brother and uncle. But I don’t regret meeting the people I did, the ones who showed me it was alright to feel again. The ones that raced through my head and who I wanted to protect and watch over. I said only one good bye..only had one in me. I left Amanda with a simple request, to be a child and not try and take on these responsibilities of an adult that have been placed on her. I’ve watched over her for sometime now and I hope I taught her enough. I wish I got to see Dryn, Aeruthuil, Dem, Oser, Brynleigh..I should of said my goodbye to Lady Ces when I saw her but she’d try to go above and beyond to try and save me. I just can’t do it, as I sit here by the graves of my first love and brother. I feel, sort of at peace. Do I have some stories for them when I see them again.