As the evening is setteling over the vale of Imladris, a warm summer evening I have my window open and sitting next to it writing here. It has been many hundreds if not a few thousands of years since you went on what should have been something that should have been a simple task..a task that took you from me, my Beridhren. Not a day goes by that I do not think some of you went I go to sleep at the evening, what would have happened with us if you had come back as you promised? I am certain we would have been husband and wife and if we had been lucky also a family, who knows..only Eru does.
All I know is that you are missing me greatly, I wear the ring everyday in its chain, hidden away close to my heart and sometimes..I imagine I can hear a soft whisper from you, telling me to let go..let go of you but I can not heed those words, I simply can not because my heart telling me that we one day will meet each other again and that I must belive in. Beridhren, my beloved soldier that lit a flame in my heart, the one that shines my way in the night, you are the star that shines the brightest in the colder winter nights for me, you're my everything still even after this long..after so many years.
Enough about him for now for I have been joined by two sparrows, sitting just outside my window, singing their song for me and I can not help but smile as I watch them, they look so happy together and they come here every evening, sining and well keeping me company, I wonder if this is your doing Beridhren at times..so much that I have named them after us two, sometimes they fly into my chamber and sit on my desk, watching me as I write and sometimes they even makes thigns that brigns a smile and laugh to me, when that happens I am certain that its your doing Beridhren, your way to make me happy without you, to have me smile and laugh as you always wanted me to do, you always said that it was my smile and laugh that really won your love but I think it was more to that.
It is high summer, in the midst of the summer, the days are warm and the nights somewhat cooloer, I do go down to the river and let the cold water from the mountains cool me down, the cold water feels like needles nad pins right away but it is not so bad once you get used t o it, and it is needed during the warm days, in the evenings I walk around in the vale, I sometimes meet friends of Vanimar and share some words with them, usually for hours before we go our own ways for the night.
I will always love you Beridhren..whereever you are..
