Is like a miracle..Seem all my questions has been answered this week...I do not feel down anymore.. I am quite calm and happy..
Earlier this week I approached Earinlin...he had to tell me what happened that day that change our lives. I wanted answers I could not wait anymore.
The journey that happened five years ago seemed to be an awful reminder to him. I could see him struggling explaining to me what happened. He hesitated a lot before he started to answer my questions. But his eyes wanted to let me know, he knew this was very important to me..
He did not know what agenda our former Tûr Veryacano had for them all when they went on this journey to an unknown place Earinlin didn't want to mention.
Something awful happened that I can't write down in my diary even.. But something dramatic happened that caused some arguments beetween the Tûr and the Cauns and a considerable disagreement took place. Veryacano was furious and because of his fondness for Lord Earinlin he chose not to banish him. But instead gave him the pain of separations and solitude. So he with a clear head would understand what loyalty ment.. Earinlin chose this test, afraid to be banished from his house and this land, never to see me again..
I got to know what I wanted; the mainreasons of the separation. And I know understand the reason of the consequences given to him.. I do not carry any harm against Lord Earinlin nor my former Tûr anylonger, both did something they thought was right..And I can't really blame them.. I am very fond of them, and what Earinlin told took away a huge burden from my heart.
Another test has been given Earinlin though..But I have totally missunderstand the purpose...I always thought Earinlin had to find something valuable as me to give to his Tûr to please him ..
But lord Anglachelm talked to me yesterday..He told me he had very high regards for me and it was because of me he wanted Earinlin to do this test..Earinlin just have to find something that represent the value of me, something symbolic sort of, so he can explain to his Tûr why he want me as a Lady.
And nothing is said that we have to be separated either.. Is all upto Lord Earinlin..I think I shall apologize to Lord Anglachelm because I missunderstood his intentions..
My days seems brighter now. I am happy.. Wonder if I shall invite my Mother Eovina and Lord Tindir along with lord Earinlin on a picnic tonight. Is time to smile again..
