Words cannot express how I truly feel right now. I feel so much happiness, so much warmth, that putting my feelings onto parchment will not do them justice. I am now a mother to a beautiful son, as my dreams and visions told me I would be.
He has been named Nemben by my husband, Lavanion by myself. He is a wonder, an absolute bundle of joy. His birth was tiresome and painful, but turned out to be worth it in each and every way. I had the support of my dear friends Nimlith and Mithanor and of course Baingol, I am forever thankful they were all present. My husband was asked to avert his eyes by Nimlith. I do hope he was not too upset about that. I also wished for him not to witness the actual birth as I feel a husband should not have to see his wife in such a state. I would not ever wish for him to think differently of me.
As I held Lavanion for the first time, I gazed at him with wonder. I looked at his face, so soft and calm. He slept sweetly as he fed. He reminds me so much of his father already, in ways I know not. This baby is truly a blessing from the Valar. He shall achieve much and be so, so loved.
My beloved has taken to fatherhood so naturally. He adores our child more than anything in this world. I love to stand and watch Baingol interact with Lavanion. They are both so sweet together, father and son. My husband is willing to help with anything, and is not afraid to get his hands dirty. I am fortunate in that sense; that I have someone to rely on, to help me if it all becomes too much.
Baingol, my beloved. Thank you so much for this beautiful gift - our child. I love you and Nemben so much. I will protect you both with my life. My family. I have been blessed to have you both grace my existence. For that, I am ever grateful. Forever, I shall pray in thanks. I love you!
I am now a mother, but I also wish to return to my duties as one of The Golden Host once returning to Ered Luin. Much needs to be done and the shadow still threatens us all. Lavanion shall never be neglected, as I shall always be there for him. Of course, I shall not be taking on as much work as I once did, but I must do what I can to ensure my baby boy has a safe and secure future. If that means going to battle, then so I shall. For my son, for my husband, for my friends, for my homeland. For us all.
I will protect the people and the lands I love.
