Perplexed heart

​Last evening I told Aeru I cared for him; it boggles my mind.  Why did I even have the nerve to speak up? But it was either then or never. Turns out he has a child on the way too.. but the Mother and himself are separated currently for the sake of safety.  Gods why is it that when I care it's wrong?​ I don't know what astonishes me more.  The fact that he cares as well, or the fact that I told him exactly how I felt.  I knew I would be chasing after something I could not have, but time will tell.  It always does, I respect him like no other.  He gave me a reason to smile again; a reason to laugh, but some things are just meant to be left alone.  I'm glad we have a strong friendship at least, I just hope not to lose myself again.  The world can be a very dark and frightening place.