Diary,
Ana left. She ran away with only a note and a locket left behind. She told me where she was going. Rohan, back home for her. It took me some time to realise this, and a talk with Rin, but had she truly cared then home would be with me. She claimed to care yet when it came to it she didn't. I cried and I nearly went after her. It was only Rin telling me not to and helping me see the truth that kept me from chasing after her.
I snapped at Pip as well. I apologised but I still feel bad about it. I know Pip has never been keen on Ana since she drew her sword on Gorlen and in the state I was in I became angry at how little she cared, and the snide comments she made towards Ana. I stormed out, ready to chase after Ana and bring her back, but Rin stopped me. I don't know what I'd do without her. She is so much younger than me, yet in some matters she seems so much wiser. She has offered to let me stay overnight at her family home, though I don't know when.
I saw Tim the next day. He helped cheer me up, he always makes me smile and laugh. It got awkward before I left. Apparently he fancies me, maybe only a little bit I'm not sure. I'm kind of upset how he said this only the day after Ana left. I'm still sad about it, though I no longer want her back. And I am definitely not ready for anything more than a friendship. I was unsure about being with Ana and Fennarr's death was a year ago. No way will I be able to be with another person anytime soon.
Tim also said my armour was nearly finished. I can't wait, plus I think I need it. I'd rather not be in Bree while the woman who attacked Fal and the Captain is still around.
But if Ana comes back. I don't want her.
