Hello again.
I start to wonder when my feelings is gonna be all good again. I have this last few day have both good and bad feelings about different things and that make me wonder if I should be happy or sad.
I am happily married, with a great man. Even though I really don´t can see why he fall in love with a silly farm girl, but I am happy he did. I am also sad that because of my married my parents told me I am not welcome anymore, they had hope that I would married a farm man and continued working on the farm. I don´t want to work on the farm any more, I don´t want to married any one else. I am sad that my parents can´t se how happy I am.
Qswas told me that he don´t want to go back to Gondor anymore. But I can´t not just believe that he want to stay and everything is fine. He is the most valuable I have left and I don´t want to lose him but I don´t want him to be sad neither.
It´s so much thing I wish I could do and so little thing I can do, sometimes I feel totaly useless.. I don´t know what to do...
