I don't know how that happened, and why it was there in that right time, but something is clear: My past is not clear yet, and maybe I am someone that is not like me before.
It was when i was sparing with Terralynn and Alyssaria, both of my own mates, The Bloody Dawn, and many of our companions watching us. I was fighting as always, but then, i received a kick on my chin, and when i look the stain of blood on my hand, i became deaf, and Falarthin and the others were gone, and Terra and Alyss more and more blurred. Then, i blinked, and instead i see a ring of fire, and two child in front of me, with his chest naked and full of scars. I looked around and i see two shadows again, but both very intimidating, and watching me with eyes full of anger and bloodlust. A voice came from them... "Kill them".
Then, somehow, i felt lost. I charged against them, and the images flickered again and again: Alyss, the child, Terra, the girl... both attacking me with bare hands and I defending the best as i can. I felt the dirt flying and the blood spreading, the pain in every strike that i received, but an strange energy kept me up. I only wanted their blood in my hands, but when both of them stopped again, i blink again, and the ring of fire was gone, Falarthin and the others watching me, and both of her looking me strangely... I feel shame, and the energy that lifted me disappeared, and my body fell as well.
Now i'm taking a bath on the river, recovering my wounds and getting cold my head again, but now i feel worried again: Why those images? What does those images mean? I don't know... maybe i need to recover my force for tomorrow, and as Falarthin said when he approached me after the spar: "You lost your mind. That is a good way to get yourself or others with you killed..."
Gets others killed... I fear to happens that again in a soon future...
